Waking up alone

I have come to two conclusions. First, love has absolutely nothing to do with marriage. You can't love someone enough to marry them. There are so many other factors involved that you must first consider before you decide that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Number one is how much this person loves you. I guess thats the most important thing. If you love someone all of your heart and soul and this person doesn't really love you at all how far does that get you? I guess that's where I made my mistake and now I'm looking kind of silly. I loved him with all of me. I was ready to do whatever for him and give whatever to him. And all he ever did was love himself. He loved doing drugs, he loved drinking beers, he loved video games and new clothes, he loved him parents(which is debatable because I don't think he really loved them either) he loved being loved by me but he never once took the time to love me. And because of that now my happily ever after has turned into this. The other conclusion I have come to is the fact that marriage is just not for me. I'm tired of it not working out. I really tried with this one. Relaitionships maybe, but I'm not even sure relaitionships are for me anymore. I think I've done too much damage to my baby girl already. I think my happiness can wait until I know she's happy. I'm just sorry it took this long for me to wise up and see the light. This is the only man she's ever known, the only father she's ever had and now because of his selfishness we have to leave and start all the way over from the beginning. Her life is going to be ripped right from under her and there's nothing I can do to stop it. But mommy won't be taken from her. I've decided to devote all of my energy to being the best mom possible. For now anyway, I won't jump back into another relaitionship. I want to spend my time on her and with her and give her the love that he could never give me. That way when she gets older she's not stuck looking everywhere for it. She will know (even though she didn't have a dad) exactly what love feels like. I guess I knew from the start that this wasn't the right thing for me. I was hesistant from the very beginning. But I was stupid and LOVE was running my life at the time. Look where that got me.